important things for you to know about me

i am starting to realize that people don't really "get" me.
and even if they do, it is only partially.
so, "get" this:

>i am not one to be taken advantage of or walked on. when people dont take my interests, circumstance, or feelings in to account, i shut down and push away. i don't need it. i have put up with it enough in my lifetime thus far, and if i am a friend to you, i deserve better.

>i am not a standby friend. i wont wait for you to make time for me. i wont wait for you to finally realize that you have got yourself in a bad situation or have lost any other friends you might have had before you come running back. i wont be made a fool of.

>i dont get angry very easily. i am extremely passionate and i love to argue, raise my voice, and drive my point, but rarely does that mean that i am fighting or that i feel upset.

>when i get angry, i shut down. i rarely yell, i rarely argue. i hide out, shut everyone out, and cry.

>i am eternally dedicated to people i care about. i love my friends, i love my family. there is nothing i would not do for them if they needed me.

>on the other hand, i have found it necessary to take care of myself. if i am being emotionally trampled on by someone who i care about, i have to remove myself from them in order to care for my person.

>i am addicted to my responsibilities. i work, i go to school, i help to manage a household, and i am soon to be married. i have worked hard to get to where i am and i wont jeopardize those things by screwing around and living like it doesnt matter.

>i love to laugh and i love being a complete weirdo. i have odd obsessions, goofy tendencies, and an insatiable desire to have fun no matter what the circumstance.

>i like to tell things like they are. if you ask me for the truth, i wont sugarcoat it because i think it is deceitful and wrong.

>what i believe is the core of who i am. i do my best to live it, but i slip up just like everyone else does. if you are interested, ask. ill tell you because it is important to me.

i think that gives you enough to remember for today. more to come.