if i had one wish

if i had only one wish in the world that i could use to my own personal benefit, i would want to be understood.
i like to be heard, and i love to be listened to, but it seems that what i really need is to be understood. i feel like i talk and talk and talk, and people listen to what i am saying, but i don't think they understand the me in what i am saying.
i want to be able to express a feeling, emotion, need, or want, and have the person i am talking to experience exactly what that it feels like to be me, what it feels like to have that emotion, or to desperately want or need something. i want to be able to share something with someone and not have to try to explain myself in words that could never do justice to the feelings i am experiencing. i want them to just know. i want them to feel it in their core, with the same intensity that i am feeling it in my being.
i guess what i am saying is that i don't want to be understood only in a mental sense, but instead i want to be understood vicariously.
part of me feels silly writing this because i know it will mostly fall on minds, minds who are "listening" and nodding in agreement with what they are reading because somewhere in their brains they have some knowledge of how i am feeling. but part of me hopes, sincerely hopes, that this will be understood by someone, someone who wants to be understood just as badly as i do, someone who is experiencing what they are reading. if that is you, thank you. this was for you.

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Listening to: John Mayer - Covered in Rain
via FoxyTunes